Maybe...?!

I love walking in the dark. I fear the silence! Because there is no such thing as silence in this world, except the one within. Yet most of all I fear the fear itself. It drags you down to the gloomy parts of reality, where there is no hope. It crushes every dream and makes you immune to those. Fear turns man back the animal he once was. It can take away the sparkle, the glitter, the light we all live on. Only if you let it in!
I am not saying "Don't be afraid!" simply because it is impossible. It's in our nature, encoded as a deadly virus that can be awaken in every moment, by none other but us. Yet, there has always been a cure against it. I call it inspiration, some call it faith, others prefer to refer to it as epiphany. It's all the same. That great moment when a light bulb switches on somewhere in the far reaches of you mind and everything in the world is right once again.
Today I will go on speaking about the benefits of positive thinking or anything of that kind. Today is dedicated to my upmost surprise at the controversial states of mind people can dabble between in a matter of minutes. And I am not talking about those depression types that just need another happy pill. I cannot help but wonder what life would have been if we weren't so involved in the drama. But I guess question like that are purely useless. There's no point in questioning the pillars of our social or personal habits. Maybe if we weren't humanoid it would have been different. Maybe if we were reptile and thus with less than perfect hearing I wouldn't have been afraid of the silence. Maybe if I was a lizard I would've been able not to think, I'd just lay on a rock all day long. But those are one too many "maybes" and I'm not counting on it!

Лъвски

Страшно е да подгледнеш назад. Не! Забравете току що казаното. Не просто е страшно, ужасяващо е. За последните две години от живота си направих толкова много грешки, толкова пъти аз самата бях една грешка, че да гледам назад е болезнено. Предполагам никой не иска да греши. А и да си признаеш е достатъчно трудно. Понякога ми се иска засрамващо много да се върна назад и да направя нещата наново, или да изтрия случилото си ( в най-добрия случай). Но тъй като и двете са невъзможни погледнати под зорката лупа на квантовата физикиа, аз, някак, се приучих да живея с грешките си. Може би най-голямата ми грешка беше да вярвам, че няма да се променя. Може би едва когато осъзнах колко много съм се променила почувствах потресаващия срам, от себе си, преди.
Изведнъж се оказах в най-големия ми кошмар - Бях почнала да живея живота, който исках и се провалях в него с гръм и трясък, затваряйки си всички изходи към нещо по-добро. И сега като в играта със столовете и тичането около тях, всички си намериха място, освен мен. Не се самосъжалявам, поне вече не. ПРЕДИ ме беше страх да искам, да се боря за желанията си. Сега призовавам всеки, който се мисли за велик и безгрешен да хвърли пръв камъка. Аз прескочих своя трап.На ТЕБ стиска ли ти?

Living and learning and growing along

Life isn't built of belongings. It is not full of what we buy, wear or eat. Life doesn't care about the education we receive, it doesn't give a damn about what car we drive or whether we have a fancy night lamp. Life doesn't ask you how much you earn and doesn't judge if you gain a few pounds. Life, however has it's pride, has it's needs. It can be a bitch, the big elephant in the room or the greatest thing that happens to you, in a whole lifetime. Life wants to be filled with friends, with stupid jokes that make you smile. It requires from you to squander time with visiting the dentist in order to be a friend, when needed. Life craves music even more than you do, because music fills the great halls of the soul's eternity. Life often expects from you to adjust to the unexpected. It bakes the hardships,that it later offers us at a quiet dinner. But it's okay because most things in it are inevitable.You may at times think that you are lonely when you're actually together with life in that loneliness...
But if only you make friends with your life, then maybe you'll finally realize you were never two different beings in the first place. So give your life the love it yearns for, the same love you want so bad. Give yourselves those seconds in a minute, when you are smiling because someone knowns you love banana juice. Let your mouth take up that smirky posture after a fun day with friends, just cause you have them. And most of all, trust - People may fail you but if you don't life is most certainly going to!