"If time is all I have"

Take your time. Don't hurry, don't drown yourself in impatience. Don't torture your mind with thoughts of what it could be!
I always rush towards the blank page. As if I can almost hear it's loneliness and I am once again filled with eagerness to send that old friend away. I have grown to believe the future never really existed and it never will exist. It almost feels like the great discovery of a time-traveller... And aren't we all?!
It's funny how "coincidence" follows me around. I bet it follows you around as well. Pieces of your thoughts and actual words someone else says,they fit together like a puzzle, thus making the picture clearer. Don't hurry. Things tend to happen as they should. Who are we kidding?! Things always happen as they should. And people seem to be very diligent in forgetting.
I rush towards oblivion all the time. These repulsive four walls that have the marks of my mistakes, they suffocate me. And I want to run away,and I want to forget the person who came here two years ago. But that is not how it works...
Here it is again- I feel like I should be saying these thousand words, trying to get a grasp on the complicated rules of the universe. But I won't be saying anything. I can't run or hide. All that remains is to just breath. And the hope that it'll get clear some day...and you can only get there by breathing.