High hopes

I remember the first time in life when I felt lost. The circumstances have no relevance because no matter how much time passes the feeling stays like a candle mark on the coffee table. The wax soaks deep within the wood, leaving a reminder to whoever will drink his coffee next. It is the same with feelings. They never seem to fade away. Happy, inspirational or terrifying. Unlike memories they never go away. Feelings...
I do not feel the need to be vulgar or transparent in my writings. And if that is what you are looking for, you better continue your search. I am not judging. These days people are ready to say almost everything to be noticed and there is nothing wrong about it. It's just that at times I get scared by the lenghts some people are ready to go to in their battles for attention. That is not my reason for wanting to write. I may at times sound too far sentimental or corny even. Truth is, all my best wishes are invested into writing simple words. I sometimes get afraid of how complicated we tend to make our lives.And I know that by the end of the day I just want to hear something simple and soothing, something that will make me smile, or even cry but feel relieved.
And that is what I am trying to achieve-to make you smile, for yourselves. And if I sometimes make you sad or angry it is also a part of the deal. Forgive me if you find me too young to speak such words but...Life is all of that. It is incredible and frustrating and puzzling. We all know it. Maybe the most horrific thing about life is that it always goes on. Or were we those who go on? Doesn't really matter. Just smile, for me!